Let’s talk about writer’s block and muses. First, writer’s
block, as a phenomenon afflicting writers of all types, has been done pretty
much to death, but I don’t think anyone has examined it from the muse viewpoint.
Maybe it should be in light of the close relationship between writers and muses.
Writers and other artistic folk—well, a goodly number of
them, at any rate—firmly believe in muses. Now, they may pay homage to one of
the classical muses (who is, more or less, associated with the particular
artist’s medium) or they may have a muse of their own devising. I don’t think
that matters, really. I think the muses, like the gods, understand human
individuality and plain orneriness. So, whichever muse has been ascribed
classically to one's art doesn’t really care whether we call her Terpsichore,
Calliope, Erato, Melpomene, or any of their sisters, or not. We could just as
easily call them Fred or Wilma or Catfish if we wished and they’d
understand…and still treat us as tools they could haul out at their whim.
The particular name doesn’t matter. It’s the attending them
when they whisper to us that is the crux of the matter. In an email to a writer
friend, I said my own muse is a butterfly, and so she seems to be. She flits
around from writer to writer, settling down for an eyeblink and whispering
lightly into the writer’s ear, seducing himer with her song.
If that hapless writer fails to hear or doesn’t write her
song down, she just flutters off to the next ear. If, however, the writer’s
ears perk up and hesh stumbles half-blindedly to the nearest computer,
notebook, or piece of scrap paper and begins to put the muse’s words to paper
(electronic or wood-pulp being completely irrelevant), that muse may decide to
tarry awhile and tell more, sometimes the whole story.
I fear that, usually, that mischievous lady will tell just
enough to cause the writer to fully involve himerself in the story, then to
drop himer like a no-longer-wanted lover and flit off to a new set of ears and
hands.
This leaves our jilted writer in mid-stroke, as it were. The
words just stop coming; sometimes the entire thrust of the story is lost. The
writer can, of course, try to soldier on and bang something out, to salvage what hesh can of it, or can simply put it
aside until—and if—that fickle lady muse visits himer again.
The writer finds himerself effectively blocked and utterly
unable to proceed until inspiration in the form of hiser muse visits again.
Sure, some writers can—or say they can—stimulate their thoughts and crank out
the story in any number of ways, but I think all the writer in those instances
are doing is finding ways to entice hiser muse to come back and whisper a bit
more. Too many of us, though, can’t summon our muse (or inspiration, if that’s
what you choose to call it) on demand. It’s all but impossible to herd
butterflies, y’see.
So it is with me. Even now, with this blog entry. I had a
rush of words and ideas, but was unable to capture nearly enough of them to
make any sort of sense with this. True, I have an excuse: it’s extremely
difficult to retain the focus needed to write when alarms are going off almost
constantly and my job is to investigate each one and take appropriate action
(which is, usually, to just turn the bloody things off). Maybe having to do
this annoyed my muse enough that she took off to find a more attentive host. I feel
the loss.
So, that butterfly nature of the muses may very well explain
why we writers sometimes stumble and lose the thread of what we’re trying to
say and we either push something
through (because of publisher’s deadlines, perhaps, or pride or ego) or we set
the piece aside with some excuse such as we need to do more research or the
light’s wrong or it’s too cold or hot or there are too many distractions.
Oh, we solemnly promise ourselves we’ll get back to it just
as soon as inspiration slams us upside the head again, and some of us actually
do. Sometimes the muse will strike in a dream that fully explains what we are
trying to say and then we feverishly attack our word processors to get those
precious words down. Sometimes, lady muse will visit us again whilst we’re
doing some mindless activity such as watching television or simply meditating.
And sometimes that won’t happen until months or years later.
For instance, I began my story Alysse
several years ago. The opening scenes presented themselves almost orgasmically,
so powerful, complete, and seemingly unending. Then they just stopped. No more,
not even a glimmer.
I tried over the years to revisit the story, but my mind was
a total blank…until one day that ol’ muse sat herself down on my left shoulder
and began to whisper to me, or maybe it was Alysse herself. It doesn’t matter,
the lady’s identity. And the story that came out was absolutely nothing like I’d
envisioned it all those years ago. This new Alysse revealed her utter and total
humanity, and she made sure I heard her real story.
That happened again just recently, with my new addition to
my Tales from the Painted Door
series. This one, Wallace, began just
like Alysse did: with an outburst of
words and a smattering of ideas, but with no visible conclusion. There was—or
would be—conflict aplenty, although I had no idea at the time just what that
would be, but the resolution of that conflict was completely hidden.
The Muse flitted off.
I set Wallace
aside for another day…and that day arrived less than a week ago in the form of
a dream, or at least those almost subconscious thoughts that come to us as we
are drifting off to sleep or just departing into wakefulness. Wallace’s story
finished itself.
All I did was write the words. That’s all we writers do,
really: just write down the words our muse whispers to us.
Wallace is now
available for you to read. You’ll find him on our website, www.novemberfirstpublications.weebly.com.
The book’s complete title is Tales from
The Painted Door II: Wallace.
And I think the muse stuck with me with this blog post, too.
I am grateful to her for that.
Slainte.
